March 10, 2025
I feel like a statue—frozen, unchanging. I experience emotions, but I don’t understand them. So I hide them. I always try to hide my real emotions… and I don’t even know why. I can’t express them.
Sometimes, I struggle to understand other people’s emotions too. I don’t get why they act the way they do, why they feel so much. It doesn’t affect me the same way.
When a situation becomes too emotional, too heavy, I go still. My mind blanks. I can’t process it. I can’t understand anything at all.
Something horrible happened. Everyone was crying. But I wasn’t. I couldn’t.
And yet, later that night, when I was alone, I started crying. Still, I didn’t know why.